I feel scared to say I am happy... I think that this place is like all ticks in the box- everything I wanted so maybe something back is luring around the corner... and I worry!
[4:22:54 PM] Smita: hey how r u
[4:23:49 PM] mita anish: Guess what - I was chatting with my boss thinking it was you about how I am suffering in three days training.. realised only after a day!!!
[4:24:24 PM] Smita: ha ha you landed yourself in trouble did u ??????
[4:24:49 PM] mita anish: not really- i never say things i really want to say!!!
[4:24:54 PM] mita anish: :P
[4:25:31 PM] Smita: ha ha well done
[4:26:20 PM] mita anish: anyway- such nice pics!!
[4:26:57 PM] Smita: thanks ya...just going into FB now...you actually think kartik looks like me ?
[4:27:33 PM] mita anish: he has your smile
[4:29:37 PM] Smita: oye bandaron wali snap me tshirt pehchani ?
[4:31:04 PM] mita anish: yes.. :) and somewhere else too... its nice to know you are using it.... :)
[4:31:29 PM] Smita: ya all of them...aamod is in them most of the time :))
[4:31:55 PM] mita anish: aur kya chal raha hai life mein
[4:32:29 PM] Smita: ya i know...' whatever ' wali na ????
[4:32:55 PM] Smita: i love it, wo itni choti ho gayee hai aamod ko, phir bhi ghusa deti hun !!
[4:33:27 PM] mita anish: :) i wasn't sure for a minute what you meant...
[4:33:48 PM] Smita: oho tum budha gayi ho yaar
[4:34:22 PM] mita anish: i have... can't remember a day from other... i am stressed i think!! :(
[4:34:34 PM] Smita: yahan sab theek, enjoying every bit of my leave...didnt expect it to be like this...dont want to go back !!!
[4:35:14 PM] Smita: yahan aa jao, uk ki mast thandi hawaon me ...dimag pe se susti nikal jaegi ;)
[4:35:59 PM] mita anish: is that what is it?
[4:36:13 PM] mita anish: bilkul garam garam ho raha hai
[4:36:23 PM] mita anish: HURRICAN on its way!
[4:36:24 PM] Smita: haan aur kya lol
[4:36:45 PM] Smita: oh man, i was damn scared to read that...what will u do
[4:37:02 PM] Smita: matlab what is there to do ? remember watching TWISTER ????
[4:37:59 PM] mita anish: hopefully it will just be a storm... rather than a hurrican... last time 2yrs ago the roof was blown away from where we live
[4:38:20 PM] mita anish: anish got 2 weeks of stock in - water milk and canned food...
[4:38:47 PM] mita anish: all important documents are packed in poly over poly bags!
[4:38:52 PM] mita anish: Ashu briefed
[4:38:59 PM] mita anish: and lets see..
[4:39:48 PM] Smita: hmm all the best ya...yahi ek problem hai na ...baki tum khush ho na ?
[4:41:26 PM] mita anish: ya...... i think... life is good- love it when I am cooking dinner and anish is playing with kids... weekends are great! lots of socialising
[4:41:33 PM] mita anish: but office is very stressful
[4:41:42 PM] mita anish: i feel all burnt down
[4:41:54 PM] mita anish: told anish yesterday after this contract i need a break
[4:42:22 PM] Smita: hmm no chnace of coming back to uk ?
[4:42:47 PM] mita anish: god knows.. dekho kya kartein hain after this contract...
[4:43:02 PM] mita anish: anish is looking to specialise and then look for something else
[4:43:02 PM] Smita: arre ghar rent pe chada kya ?
[4:44:02 PM] mita anish: yes.. it has been nearly since we came here- 18 months ka term hain but nearly 60% goes into fee and stuff.... but atleast we are not paying council fee and something is better than nothing
[4:45:00 PM] mita anish: aur tum logon ka koi naya plan?
[4:46:43 PM] Smita: last i heard from you was ki shahela log reh rahe hain ...isi liye poocha ?
[4:47:31 PM] mita anish: yup.. straight after these people came in... abhi tak to sab theek thak hai
[4:49:16 PM] Smita: nahi yaar, koi plan nahi, will start working mon to wed from feb i think...baki to as usual, anil is doing ok ...i am happy staying at home and cooking and looking after the kids...its fun MOST of the time but the funny bit is its hard for me to get into this mode and then its very difficult to get out of this !!
[4:49:18 PM] Smita: lets see
[4:49:36 PM] Smita: BTW anil wants another baby sometime next year lol
[4:49:53 PM] mita anish: lol
[4:49:55 PM] mita anish: lol
[4:49:57 PM] mita anish: lol
[4:50:00 PM] mita anish: serious?
[4:50:04 PM] mita anish: sorry
[4:50:10 PM] mita anish: i think i have had enough
[4:50:16 PM] Smita: not me, but we'll see
[4:50:23 PM] mita anish: he must want a lil princess
[4:50:27 PM] mita anish: father's heart you see
[4:51:02 PM] Smita: he does, dont think i can handle the girl now...have FINALLY started thinking what boys think
[4:51:14 PM] mita anish: :)
[4:51:31 PM] mita anish: awww.. they are so different... but girls do bring more joy
[4:51:35 PM] mita anish: they do
[4:51:48 PM] mita anish: they are bright and charming and sensitive
[4:52:00 PM] mita anish: boys will be boys
[4:52:03 PM] Smita: dont know about us, but my mom will definitely have a heart attack if i announce something
[4:52:25 PM] mita anish: he he he... i can't imagine another one... not now
[4:53:47 PM] Smita: hmm guess you just learn to be happy and satisfied with what you happy, esp with a special one like aamod, sometimes its like hes not there in house...so quiet...and sometimes hes fit to be good enough as 3 children, rolled into one
[4:54:23 PM] Smita: he is getting sooo strong mita, esp with words not coming out...its scary
[4:55:07 PM] mita anish: i know what you mean...
[4:55:16 PM] Smita: it takes a lot to stay calm
[4:56:04 PM] mita anish: how is he doing with the school..
[4:56:06 PM] Smita: ive just lashed out sometimes and then cried the whole night cursing myself..but im getting there
[4:57:42 PM] mita anish: its not easy being mum
[5:00:04 PM] Smita: yes esp when he starts going into that mood in which he just claws, doesnt want to listen to anyone even if you shout or scream...just attacks ! weve got occupational therapy involved, but its a biiiig struggle avoiding him when this happens
[5:00:18 PM] Smita: and it happens to me only !!!!!
[5:01:36 PM] Smita: im so scred to discuss this in detail with the doctors ..think they will go the calming drug route which is very scary
[5:02:21 PM] mita anish: that's true.. i would also think thrice before doing that!
[5:03:20 PM] Smita: yes but you have to be in my shoes to understand what im saying...i really need help to tackle him sometimes...shit ya i feel so guilty saying this
[5:04:21 PM] mita anish: i know.. believe me.. i read on AHDH last week for Ashu :) but he does well in school so it does not apply!!
[5:04:55 PM] mita anish: and he knows exactly what buttons to push for Anish.. and then we have mahabharat...
[5:05:44 PM] Smita: AHDH ?
[5:05:49 PM] mita anish: and then I row with Anish that he reacts to emotion rather than take a step back and act like a mature person and he tells me that I am too lenient
[5:06:14 PM] mita anish: hmm... i might have got it wrong.. something to do with hype activity...
[5:07:06 PM] mita anish: Kids with ADHD act without thinking, are hyperactive, and have trouble focusing. They may understand what's expected of them but have trouble following ...
[5:07:10 PM] mita anish: etc etc
[5:07:15 PM] mita anish: etc etc
[5:07:17 PM] mita anish: :)
[5:07:25 PM] mita anish: but he is focused.. i give him that...
[5:09:23 PM] Smita: i cud never do things with aamod, felt such a bloody failure all along...remember you acheiving soo much with ashu when you spend time with him...here we have just learnt to let him be, i dont even try now, he wants to learn things HIS way...no turn taking games are possible, padhai likhai to chodo
[5:13:22 PM] mita anish: hmm... but when you say things I think to myself - this happens to me as well... honest.. I know Aamod has challenges- but you are not alone- we all go through this... it took me three days for me to get Ashu to learn and identify all alphabets and a few hours for numbers.. with Aisha I was so worried- until two weeks ago - no matter what you do she could not get around to A- she can write it (loves to write all day) but A for apple- a sound.. nothing - ten minutes she will forget... and then suddenly one day it all fell in place
[5:14:32 PM] mita anish: i do activities- but they all are 10 minutes - kids loose focus.. if i am playing ludo with aisha.. she wants to throw the dice all the time..
[5:15:05 PM] mita anish: she can't understand the concept of taking chances.. but writing... she will be on for hours...
[5:15:28 PM] mita anish: she hates to be told stories.. she doesn't understand the sequence
[5:15:34 PM] mita anish: ashu loved it
[5:18:55 PM] Smita: i know ...think im in a moaning mood today... but i do not achieve anything with aamod, they say he will learn when hes ready.....hes much much behind his peers, probably 3-4 years, but to be fair to him...i should not compare...i am jst very happy that he is in safe hands ( hopefully ) at school, and slowly slowly as he spend years there they will teach him how to lead a normal independant life...they will also be able to diagnose furthur complications if any....like learning disability etc etc
[5:19:52 PM] Smita: soemtimes we get very worried for him, then think that it cud hav been worse...so jst thank god for what we have :)
[5:20:07 PM] mita anish: it must be so hard on you... you are not in moaning mood I am .. its so nice to be able to talk to someone.. anish is so not good :)
[5:20:16 PM] mita anish: i know
[5:21:16 PM] Smita: mita i miss you soooooooooo much, you cant imagine...i used to look up to you for all advise ...so much support ...shoulder to cry on ...boo hooo
[5:21:50 PM] mita anish: aww... me tooo.... i feel so burnt out here.... so many people but just people................
[5:22:16 PM] Smita: anil n i dont discuss all this, we get very worried if we do so we dont ...
[5:22:39 PM] Smita: sometimes its best to let the water flow, jahan jana hoga jaega types !
[5:23:06 PM] mita anish: :) agreed.... (handshake)
[5:23:36 PM] mita anish: ghar chala jaye... looking forward to tomorrow- off.. kids in school... some peace
[5:23:48 PM] Smita: hmmm statement review meeting hai 17th ko, dekhte hain kya hota hai
[5:23:55 PM] Smita: chalo byee...why off ?
[5:24:32 PM] Smita: thanks hun for listening
[5:25:12 PM] mita anish: chutti spare hai- want to prepare for diwali- so i said- just need some me time.. .i think... too much of anish!! |-(
[5:25:27 PM] mita anish: so off thurs and fri
[5:26:18 PM] mita anish: diwali on friday?
[5:26:32 PM] Smita: ha ha i can understand...zyada togetherness ki aadat nahi hai na to pachna nahi hai lol
[5:26:44 PM] mita anish: you bet
[5:27:14 PM] Smita: yupp, bought a pan today for dhanteras...gold out of budget...bought kids clothes n all...diwali menu kal final hoga
[5:27:58 PM] mita anish: you are having someone over? this is the first time i don't want to
[5:29:03 PM] Smita: one friend...we dont hav people over every time...aaj kal socialising hota hi nahi hai...abhi aamod ka routine beech me aata hai, he gets very tired and chidchida if not put to bed by 7, typical goa haan!
[5:29:18 PM] Smita: gora i meant
[5:31:07 PM] mita anish: i have to many people who would love to come over and have been asking.. i want to put mehndi and put rangooli- make flowers and leaves jhalar for the door, put candles everywhere... and dress up... but then no one to share with.. is it sad?
[5:32:13 PM] Smita: why koi nahi..family to hai...i think i know what u mean...i feel stupid to get all dressed up just for puja...
[5:32:51 PM] mita anish: yup like on karvachauth - just went in pyamas and watched tv... :)
[5:33:14 PM] mita anish: but then the expenses- there is no one meaningful here
[5:34:14 PM] Smita: hmm aur abhi to pooja 6 baje ke pehle karni padegi warna bache will be looking forward to going out all dress up hoke ..probably will hav to ask anil to take them out for a drive
[5:35:00 PM] Smita: hmm think tumko overdose ho gaya hai guesta ka na...like bindu log in chester
[5:35:01 PM] mita anish: good idea... chalo yaar ghar chalein.. will catch you tomorrow sometime... oye... what did you think of my office?
[5:36:01 PM] Smita: kahan naaaaa..envy you woman !!!! i will die for being with you guys for a holiday !!! bhagwan paise barsa do basss !
[5:36:32 PM] mita anish: he he he.. yahan bhi thore se.... chal take care
[5:36:36 PM] mita anish: bye
[5:36:59 PM] Smita: byee catch ya tom :*:*
[5:37:08 PM] mita anish: :)
[5:37:10 PM] mita anish: bye
